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This Woman Found Out An Amazing Secret About Her Mom After Her Passing

This Woman Found Out An Amazing Secret About Her Mom After Her Passing
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In a loving family, there really isn't anything like the bond a child has with their parent. Even when you get older and hopefully go on to establish a family of your own, it's a deep connection that can't be severed. A woman named Nikki Pennington has been working to keep that connection even after her mother's passing.

Pennington blogs about grief and the sometimes very long path to recovery after losing a loved one. Her mother died unexpectedly, and she often writes about that loss and how it is affecting her daily life now.

She also keeps a Facebook page called Grief to Hope with Nikki Pennington. A recent post has gone viral, because it shows what an amazing mom Nikki had.

Pennington writes that she has always struggled with anxiety. Her mom knew that about her, and was great at talking her down when she was spinning out. After her mother died, Pennington told her husband that "her person" who understood how to help her was gone forever. He then told her an amazing story about what Nikki's mom had done on their wedding day to assure that wouldn't happen.

Pennington writes:

Anxiety has been a part of my life for as far back as I can remember

It’s been there for so long that I don’t really recall a time in my life without it.

If you have anxiety then you know you have that one person. The one person that knows just how to help calm you down in the midst of the anxiety fog.

That one person for me was my Mom.

If I could sit down beside the twenty-five year old me • The one sobbing and screaming uncontrollably on the floor the day my ‪Mom‬ ‪died‬, I would have a lot of things to tell her • I would sit right beside the younger me who is screaming, “Why her??” and "Where are YOU?? How did you just disappear??” and "How am I going to survive this without you??" • I would just hug her, so tight. I would hug her just like my mom would have hugged me had she been there • I would tell her she is going to feel like she can't breathe some days • Some days the weight of ‪grief‬ and life without her is going to feel so heavy she will think she can't carry it any longer • At times she will feel like it consumes her days and nights, just thinking about her, missing her, aching for her • I'll hug her even tighter when I say this next • I tell her, that suddenly one day soon, something beautiful will happen. She will be me and I sit here with you today almost seven years later with a smile on my face and a joy that I never thought I would have when I was her all those years ago • Yes, some days will feel ultimately impossible to survive, you'll survive them anyway. Some days she will get through without crying and other days she will wonder if she’s cried all the tears her body can handle and she will cry some more • I’ll remind her it doesn't matter how she gets through, it just matters that she gets through it because that's the only way to do this whole grief thing and that’s to feel it. She can't wish days away and skip to years down the road, she will want to but she can't • I’ll tell her that this is going to feel like it will be the death of her a hundred times over on this journey but in the end she will feel like she’s become a completely different person, a person that is free to live again • A better version of herself, one that is just like her mom and that’s where she will find herself and her mom again, that’s where she will find the beauty in this grief

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She knew just what to say, how to say it and the right moment to say it to help bring me back to reality. Her words and comfort were always stronger than my anxiety.

I always just assumed she would always be there to be my person but that all changed.

It was a few weeks after my husband and I were married and my anxiety kicked in, I said, “I have to call my Mom” he paused and said, “How about you talk to me instead? Just give me a try and see if I can compare.” 

So I did, I gave him a chance to help ease my anxiety and it was as if I was talking to my Mom, it was as if I was talking to my person.

The calls to my Mom when my anxiety was in full force became less and less. She never asked why, never asked about it once. That’s because Moms like mine are few and far between.

The day my Mom died I called my husband. I said, “My person is gone. The one that knew me and loved me with all my flaws. The one, the only one who could calm my fears, she’s gone.” 

Then he began to tell me a story about my Mom. A story that I never knew about her before because she didn’t want me to know.

You see on our wedding day, my Mom gave my husband a note. A note that was just for the two of them. A note with the title that said, “How to be Nikki’s person."

It was a step by step guide on what she would say and do for me when my anxiety was taking over.

Step 1: Just listen 

Step 2: Listen a little more 

Step 3: Don’t try and solve the problem 

Step 4: Tell her you understand

Step 5: Keep listening until she’s sorted it out on her own. She will, she always does.

On my wedding day it looked like someone had thrown up the color purple and not because it was my favorite color but someone else’s • One of my bridesmaids backed out last minute and one of our cakes never arrived • My Dad wasn’t the one to walk me down the aisle, instead it was my sweet grandfather • My dress was considered risqué for a church wedding because my shoulders were showing and some of my back. In fact some family members even had my dress approved before I was able to wear it • Our wedding was under two thousand dollars, we were broke and our photographer turned out to not really even be a photographer at all so we don’t have many pictures to show from that day • Our wedding was far from traditional, my family background was opposite of my husbands and did I mention I wore ivory instead of white (insert gasp) • I say all that to tell you this is why the world needs to see Meghan Markle marry Prince Harry because the world needs a not so perfect Princess • The world needs to see real, it needs to see that just because families are different doesn’t mean love can’t win, the world needs to see that even a Princess has family drama and that’s okay • So here’s to Meghan Markle representing so many of us in the world with families that work a little differently, with ideas that might push traditional things to the brink just a little bit and showing the world that becoming a Princess doesn’t look Pinterest perfect or like a Lifetime Movie all the time and that’s okay • Here’s to the world seeing that your family background, all those traditions and even a fancy wedding won’t determine the strength of your marriage • So, Miss Markle, I’ll be cheering you on from my couch all while wearing a fancy hat I bought off Amazon as I watch you walk down that aisle knowing that you are paving the way for so many of us whose families and backgrounds look a little different #royalwedding #marriage #meghanmarkle #wedding

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She doesn’t know it yet, but she’s had it figured out on her own all along.

My Mom gave up being my person not because she wanted to but because she wanted my husband to know how to be when she was no longer here. She gave up being my person so that she could make sure I would always have one no matter what.

Well Mom, you will still forever be my person.

People are deeply moved by this story of Pennington's mom deliberately giving her space to attach to another person, and many related to how she deals with anxiety. They also have "their person" who helped them when they were low, and some have lost them, too:

A beautiful reminder of how love lasts beyond separation.

Celebrate your person or the memory of your person today. It'll make them smile no matter where they are.

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