First dates are nerve-wracking experiences. When I look back to all of my first dates, I was literally an octopus trying to be whatever it was a person wanted. "Is this what you want for you to like me? No? Is this what you want me to be?" It's disgusting and humiliating. Even if I convince someone to like me on the first date, months down the road the real me comes out, whether I like it or not.