It bothers me just how much of my existence revolves around food. And given that 8 million people in the U.S. suffer from eating disorders, I'm far from alone in having an unhealthy relationship with food.
I hate myself for what I eat when it's unhealthy. When I am eating healthy for weeks and I feel self-destructive I binge for days on cheesecake for breakfast and chocolates at all times of the day, fooling myself into thinking my body can "burn it off" with the 30 minutes of cardio I do a day.
If I'm not eating what I should be eating: I'm stressing over it. Even when I am eating what I should be eating I don't stress enough and fall back into the habits of self-destructive eating. I've tried all sorts of drugs and substances, opiates that have made me feel incredible and to be honest, none of them had anything on a bar of chocolate packed with hazelnuts.
Both men and women suffer from eating disorders, and sometimes a complicated relationship with food can morph into a relationship that is actually debilitating. Eating disorders can have long-term effects on all aspects of your health, from the strength of your heart, to your bone mass, to even your teeth. Eating disorders can also be crippling for mental health and have a high correlation with depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem. They're no joke, and they're definitely not a choice.
Oh hey! 💜 If you love (or even tolerate) my art, you should check out the 'Me and My ED' Facebook page and my online store at meandmyed.bigcartel.com. The store is particularly fun 🏠 It's housing my beloved ebook and giving it all the tender loving care it deserves 🙊 If you want to give it a little TLC too, all you have to do is click on the link in my bio and start spreading the love 💕💜 . (Yay for finally getting my shit together and setting up a website and Facebook page) (Double yay for being full of joy and letting my inner dork out)
Titled, "Me and my ED" artist Christie Begnell addressed her eating disorder through a series of candid illustrations that get brutally honest on how she copes with food.
I hate that so many people still think that Eating Disorders are a choice. Do you think I would've chosen to live with a bully in my head just so I could be "skinny". Fuck no. And just because I was never in a certain BMI, that doesn't mean I never had an Eating Disorder... Eating 👏🏻 Disorders 👏🏻 are 👏🏻 a 👏🏻 mental 👏🏻 illness 👏🏻 I wouldn't wish one on my worst enemy and I am so proud of everyone battling through their own 💜 #edaw2017 #notachoice
Guess who finally finished the e-book?! 🥇🏆 (This gal! 💁🏼) . If you guys love my drawings, you're going to love 'Me and My ED'. Its a picture book that depicts life with one of the most complex and misunderstood illnesses (Eating Disorders). It includes pictures showing the purpose of an ED (control, numbing, safety, etc) and how difficult it is to live with a demon in your mind. This book has helped me and many others understand their illness and be able to show others how it feels. When you can't verbalise your thoughts, or even write them down, don't turn to ED behaviours, pick up this book and show your loved ones 🌷 . Get your e-book today by clicking the link in my bio! Plus if you're super quick, Blurb are having a 25% off sale for the next few hours 😁 It will be available in the iBook store within the next week as well 😊 I'm so excited to share it with you guys! It fills my heart with so much light when I hear that my art is helping you.
🌷 I'm going live 12pm AEST Friday 3rd February 🌷 . Hey guys! My name is Christie and I'm the artist behind Me and My ED. I am so so thankful for all of your kind words and I feel so blessed to be able to share my art with you. A lot of my inspiration comes from my journey in my Eating Disorder recovery, but also the stories you have been sharing with me. I would love to get to know you all and listen to your stories, but also give you guys the opportunity to ask me whatever you like 😊 . You can ask me anything about my recovery, my book, my artwork or even about my life. I can't wait to meet you all 💜 (Oh and I might even talk about what this big upcoming announcement is 😅) . If you end up missing me, I'll organise another time in the near future for a second Q&A 🌷
🌹AND THE WINNER IS..🌹 Congratulations @ventingrecoverysarah ❤ You've just won the final hard copy of Me and My ED, a personalised print and a very special valentine gift 🙌🏻 Thank you to everyone who entered and shared some of my photos. You guys are absolute legends. Because there weren't many of you and I'm full of love today, I've decided to give everybody who entered their own copy of the 'Me and My ED' ebook! @tati.volkova @daaliavaldez Happy Valentines Day my lovelies and remember to show yourself some love today as you all deserve to be your own Valentines ❤️🌹
Isn't that what life's all about?